CainTNT

I'm human, and I'm not

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I Am A Boy. by CainTNT, literature

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I Am A Boy.

I'm a boy, I assure you, Believe in me, Would I lie to you? I may need some little tweeks, And little alterations, but I am a man, A self made man. I'm a boy, I assure you, I was made, not born, but I am still a boy. I may need some parts, but who doesn't? We aren't made complete. I'm a boy, I assure you, maybe not a bio boy, but a nice boy, none the less. I may need some help, to live my dream, but don't we all? Need a little help along the way? I'm a boy, I assure you, Forget the F on my papers. Forget the name, and call me George. I may need to do a little work, but I'm a man, a trans man. Does that make me le

I Needed You. by CainTNT, literature

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I Needed You.

I am broken, Never to be fixed again. There are parts of me, More dead then alive. Ever know, What it's like, To die a million times over, But still be alive? My heart should have stopped, Like my emotions did. Way back when. Your words still sting, They keep me from Adventuring again. I am alone, But it is not in vain. It's too keep the similar pain Away. A sorry, Isn't always worth it. There are pros, And there are cons. In this case, I chose to say goodbye. You told, You tattled, You shattered me again. I no longer feel so safe, In the idea that was my safe Haven. Now high school is a coffin, filled with dead

Not Worth Living In Anymore. by CainTNT, literature

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Not Worth Living In Anymore.

We live in a world, Full of pain, And sorrow, And stupidity. We live in a world, Where virginity isn't a big deal, Where loving the person you love, Is a crime. If you're gay. We live in a world, Where originality is frowned upon. Where technology is more worthy, Than fellow man. We live in a world, Where we pass by each other, Acting like the other is dirt. Because of some society line. Fag. Woman. Poor. Homeless. We live in a world, That isn't worth living in anymore.

I Could Cry. by CainTNT, literature

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I Could Cry.

I could cry. From happiness, Sadness, And everything in between. I love you. And you don't know that. Can we please stop playing games? I'll stop hiding, And you'll stop lying. I could cry, Whenever you talk to me, Whenever you talk to anyone else, But me. Can we please stop playing games? I'll stop lying, And you'll stop hiding. I could cry, From distance, Sometimes you feel so close, But I have to remind myself… Your not. Can we please stop playing games? I'll come clean, And you'll tell me you're the same.

I Promise. by CainTNT, literature

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I Promise.

I cross my heart, and hope to die. I promise you, with my life. To love you. Today, Tomorrow, Forever. Guess that just wasn't enough. I guess it's never enough. I cross my heart, swear my words are true. I promise you, with my pride. To care for you, Until the day I die. Guess that just wasn't enough. I guess it's never enough. For you. I cross my heart, and give you my soul. I promise you, with my wellbeing. That I'll provide for you, As long as it's in my power. I guess that just wasn't enough. I guess it's never enough. Not for you, Not for anybody. I cross my heart, and said goodbye. I promised you, I'd never say it

Isn't It Enough For You? by CainTNT, literature

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Isn't It Enough For You?

I love you. Isn't that enough? Can't love change the world? Give me a chance. To love you, To care for you. I love you. Isn't that enough? I'd give you everything, If I could. Give me a chance. To be strong, To prove something. I love you. Isn't that just enough? When did it ever say, That I had to fight the world, Just for you? Give me a chance. To become someone, To become someone you could love. I love you. Why isn't that enough for you?

Real Me. by CainTNT, literature

I wish I was Genderless. by CainTNT, literature

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I wish I was Genderless.

My body use to be a part of me, Now it's just working against me. I use to feel centered, I use to feel female. Now I'm lost, Now I'm no longer sure. I can close my eyes, And see. The futures that are in front of me. There is a choice, There is a price. Be female, Be with family. Become male, Have those fights. Potentially lose people. I want to just wake up one morning, And not have to worry, About my gender, About my path. I wish I was genderless.

If I Died? by CainTNT, literature

Do you Ever? by CainTNT, literature

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Do you Ever?

Do you ever feel like dying? Do you ever feel tired of trying? I do. I do all the time. I've tried my all, But I just can't fight it. Do you ever feel that your not perfect? Do you ever feel that your not worth it? I do. I do all the time. I've tried my very best, To be perfect. But now it doesn't feel worth it. Do you ever feel like crying? Do you ever feel like giving up? I do. I do all the time. My will can't stop the tears. My heart can't stop the grief.

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I Am A Boy. by CainTNT, literature

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I Am A Boy.

I Needed You. by CainTNT, literature

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I Needed You.

Not Worth Living In Anymore. by CainTNT, literature

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Not Worth Living In Anymore.

I Could Cry. by CainTNT, literature

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I Could Cry.

I Promise. by CainTNT, literature

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I Promise.

Isn't It Enough For You? by CainTNT, literature

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Isn't It Enough For You?

Real Me. by CainTNT, literature

I wish I was Genderless. by CainTNT, literature

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I wish I was Genderless.

If I Died? by CainTNT, literature

Do you Ever? by CainTNT, literature

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Do you Ever?

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Oct 31
Canada
Deviant for 13 years
They / Them

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My Bio

Hey.
I use to go by my real name on the interwebs, Tuqqaasi,
but now I go by the nickname George.
It's just...
More me.
More right.

I am a writer of un-known talent, meaning, I don't know myself...
I tend to write really well, depressed stuff, or love sick stuff.

I'm Pansexual and Pangender (wondering if I'm FTM, but, who knows? Everything is fluid)

I'm on TH too, under George^^
I'm on QA as CainTNT, same as here,
I'm on Witty as Emeline_Desires...

I don't really know what to say.

Comment, fav, whatever, I don't bite and I love making new friends.

<3 George.

Favourite Visual Artist

Falling In Reverse, Escape The Fate, Plain White T's.

Favourite Movies

ummmmm.... charlie and the chocolate factory

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Falling In Reverse, Chiodos, Kill Hannah, Avril, Blood On The Dance Floor, Breath Carolina, ETF-old

Favourite Writers

Emily Dickenson, Edgar Allen Poe.

Favourite Games

LITTLEBIGPLANET (jj's psp game)

Tools of the Trade

a pen, and a computer peferable.

Other Interests

reading, writing, the internet, friends, swimming, annoying my brother.

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CainTNT

Mar 20, 2012

Not Dating. (Rant)

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... Aperantly it's ALRIGHT for me to be bisexual (PANSEXUAL- not that my mom knows that) But it's not alright for me to act on it. Nope. It isn't. Basically, me and (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE) said I love you on facebook, in that totally friendly way. And my mom was all like "what's up between you and (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE) on facebook with all the 'I love you''s?" And it was like, what now? I can't say I love you and mean it as a friend just because I'm not straight? Just because we're the same sex, I'm not straight, and I say I love you, it's suddenly a relationship? Don'tcha think I would have SAID something about a relationship if it

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CainTNT

Mar 19, 2012

Things I do because I don't have a life (list)

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Okay, these are things I do because I don't have a life :D I mean, a social life! I sit around and read, Go for walks when it's not freezing Concemplate the meaning of life and all that shit Talk to other people on facebook. Talk to people on Teenhelp.org Write in forums on Teenhelp.org Look at troll photos Make meme's on Memestache imagine myself without boobs Think about doing my make up Take a shower Watch internet (I'm right now watching about a trans guy from Sweden and Miles Jai from America) Read FMLs Read free books from ebooks Think about poetry write poetry Various other loser things.

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CainTNT

Mar 18, 2012

My Views

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I don't know why I'm writing this, but it makes sense because I feel like I should. Someone told me to open my eyes, and I know that my eyes are not closed... if they were, how would I type this? They were refuring on how I see the world. I see things differently because I AM different. I am different because things they care about, like getting high, drinking, having a boyfriend/girlfriend, aren't that important to me. I mean, I'd be perfectly happy to be in a relationship, but it doesn't mean that I'm not okay being without. I don't care about drugs or alcohol, those are just things that would impare me, not lead me to become a better